Why Do I do This?

I just want to talk about video games for a second here. I love video games, it's what I do. It's what I'm best at, and they're just dang awesome.

I want to talk about how they give me a sense of agency. HOw they make me feel like i can truly accomplish something. How they can make me face my fears, and let me overcome my fears. How Zelda has taught me courage, and bravery by going down into the depths of dungeons for the sake of a kingdom. For the sake of love. I want to talk about how I became a jedi while playing Star Wars Knights of the Old Republic. I want to talk about how I climbed the seven thousand steps to High Hrothgar, and slayed a dragons in Skyrim. I want to talk about how I have met great evils, and destroyed them. How I united an entire galaxy to fight alongside me as I faced down the Reapers in a battle that we were ultimately going to lose, but we fought all the same. With tenacity and strength, as brothers and sisters fighting for survival. These are all the great things that video games have allowed me to do. They are an absolutely wonderful medium that I want to share with people, and that should be shared. I want them to be talked about in a way inspires greatness, that inspires people to pick up a controller to play a game, and experience it for themselves. I want video games to be respected, and not to be looked at with scorn and disdain at the very mention of the genre. I want to change the conversation about video games.

I don't want to talk about the mechanics of the game, the layout of the levels, or the clunkiness of the controls, because that in itself is clunky. It's stilted, and a chore to listen to someone talk about that. No, I want to talk about the emotions that I felt. The sense of speed that I got from playing Burnout and the thrill of coming in first place. I want to talk about the atmosphere and charm of Bioshock as I stroll through the halls of the sunken city, and discover the perverse leadership that ultimately ruined it. Video games, ultimately, are forms are art, and art evokes emotion. Art tells stories, art records history, art makes history, art brings us perspective of the artist, art brings up debates about what was the intention of the art. Now, not all video games are good, every kind of art form has its share of schlock, I mean, look at Michael Bay's work.

I'm really looking forward to what's becoming of the video game industry. Nowadays, we find Call of Duty's and Battlefields that all look and feel the same. Sadly, the video game industry has become somewhat of a factory, that's just churning out product, rather than creating something unique or wonderful. With people like Bobby Kotick, the head of Activision, who view the industry as a way to make money rather than art, it's difficult to see any kind of progression. However, popping up, all over the world are independent game developers who create games like nothing else anyone has ever seen before. Notch ( aka Markus Persson), of Mojang studios, created Minecraft. The game exploded, with no marketing, making millions solely on the basis of word of mouth, and supporters to pave the way for it to become the most successful indie game in existence. Just this year at PAX, the Penny Arcade Expo, there was a booth dedicated entirely to independent video games and indie game developers. That booth was larger than either of Microsoft's and Sony's booths. There are good, creative, and fun games out there, they just need their fifteen minutes of fame, and they can go on to make it big. That's what we all want. We want the little guy to succeed, and we want to see something new, and we're only going to get that from these independent game developers. Those game developers grew up in the same era that I did, and want to create games that are the kind that they want to make. And the kinds of games that they want to make, are they kind that they grew up with.

I remember playing games that were fun and inventive, and did something interesting. They weren't the best games, they had their flaws, but at least they tried to do something different. I find that commendable in this day and age, where invention is scarce. I grew up in what I think was a golden age of gaming, when developers weren't afraid of trying out something new, or when they were still finding out just what a game could do. I stand by it that the mid 1990s to early 2000s were days of true innovation in the games industry. The Nintendo 64, Sega Dreamcast, and the Sony Playstation brought forth some of the most monumental games in the industry. Final Fantasy VII, The Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time, Soulcalibur, Jet Grind Radio, Super Mario 64, Mario Kart 64, Jet Force Gemini, Half-Life, Grim Fandango, Deus Ex, Thief, Resident Evil, Mega Man X, and many, many more. It isn't out of nostalgia that I say that these are great games, it's because they are. I still pull out the old games, because it's important to know where we've come from as an industry, and to take the occasional trip down memory lane. Ok, so maybe nostalgia is a bit of a factor, but they really are good games. If playing Civilization V has taught me anything: is that golden ages come and go, and I believe that we are on the cusp of another golden age. Not just with video games, but with other forms of art as well. I think it's going to be an interesting time to be alive, and experience something new.

Updates and apologies

Well, it looks like it's been over a week since I last updated. Sorry about that, I've been working a lot. Also, I've compiled my backlog of video games that I haven't beaten. Some games I haven't even touched.



That's quite a lot of games. In fact, here's the whole list of games, in no particular order:
Bayonetta
Dragon age II
Deus Ex: human revolution
L.A. Noire
Pikmin 2
Second sight
Killer 7
Viewtiful joe
Eternal darkness
Beyond good and evil
Mercenaries
Splinter cell chaos theory
Ninja gaiden
Shenmue 2
Kotor 2
Sly 2 band of thieves
Final fantasy X (Not Pictured because it's in my PS2)
We heart katamari
Jak x combat racing
The Simpsons game
Skies of Arcadia
Tom clancy's rainbow six
Super magnetic neo
Ecco the dolphin
Mdk 2
Toy commander
God of war. All of them
3d dot game heroes
Shadows of the damned
Ico
Lego pirates
Ratchet and clank: a crack in time
Ratchet and clank: future weapons
Ratchet and clank: up your arsenal
Catherine
Naruto shipuden: ultimate ninja storm 2
Fall out new Vegas
Zelda: the phantom hourglass
Advance wars: dual strike
Phoenix wright: trials and tribulations
Donkey kong 64
Jet force Gemini
Star Wars: shadows of the empire
Paper Mario
Aerofighters: assault
Winback
Banjo kazooie

That's not counting the downloaded titles from PSN, XBLA, or Steam. I've got a lot of games to keep me for a while.

I've decided to start with Final Fantasy X, that's why it isn't in my gigantic stack of games. Reason being: is that I haven't said some nice things about Final Fantasy in the past, and I want to give Final Fantasy (and other JRPGs) another shot. So far, though, Final Fantasy is really good. I want to write a review of it for all of you.

Taking out my backlog of games, and actually playing through them is really refreshing, and not even in a nostalgic sort of way. Some of these games I bought just to have in my collection because they were heralded as masterpieces, and it turns out they are. I just sunk thirteen hours in Final Fantasy X, and I know that I'm no where near finished. My first thought was, "Normal games would be done by now." and not the fact that I had spent half a day playing a video game. Most games that I play end in about twelve to fourteen hours. That's modern game design, and that's not necessarily a good thing. For some games it works, others are cut far too short, most likely as a result of trying to hit a release date. Perhaps that's a topic for another time. Anyhow, I'm really enjoying Final Fantasy X, and am looking forward to writing a review of it. Apologies for the delay in updates.

However...

Exciting announcement to come soon!

Said announcement will be a really big deal, and is the next step that I need to take to advance my career in video game journalism. It's always been my dream to be in the video game journalism industry, and all my friends and family have been extremely supportive of my drive and talent towards that goal. A friend of mine that I'm partnering up with will play a big part in this upcoming announcement, and it's going to be really big. I'm super excited, and I hope that all of you folks are as well.Here's hoping that everything goes well.

Fingers Crossed!